Not feeling really confident in my ability to FINISH anything. It's happening again...

Going to Uni doing a course I'm skilled and slightly interested in but isn't where I'd like to end up. Started a Video Games Designer course which is where I'd like to be but could make things even more complicated. Trying to adjust to using AS3 and classes by attempting to make a solid engine to reuse for projects I'd like to make (Mainly dancing with camera-like functions)... And flowing through this slowly.

I looked back at some of the very early work I made. Made me wonder where I'd be if I put out any one of them. Sticky Situation 2 (Yes, there was a second one) took it back to how naive I was about how good I was with thinking up conceptions. I'm glad I've grown to become alot more balanced and less bias to my first love.

God! This sounds alot like a diary entry...

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F*** This! I already know how punishing the internet is, let alone Newgrounds.com!

Here. Have a pic of a concept I want to make for Pico Day...

Though it's been since 2001 from my last submission I have become a very adept programmer since then. Been trying to absord a huge amount of AS3 and OOP (Been meaning to move in) and it looks like its gonna take a while before I'm competent to put something out using it.

I might be forced to finish the laboured game I had no intention of releasing due to this sudden realisation. Not even sure next year would warrent anythign amazing unless I can mentally get my finger out my... Y'know.

Peh! Have a screen for your troubles...

It starts, as always, with me being in the same position I'm usually in. I have a great idea. One that from what I've invisioned looks like something worth creating... If only I had the Kahunas to get something done.

Over a period of a year I finally aquired tools that I wanted to get my productions started. FL Studio 8 , Adobe Flash CS3 and a Tablet PC. In tandem they're any versatile creators dream.(Aside from the poor quality of the Table PCs screen) I've got a bunch of ideas and making new ones in my head or scattered in the detroit of lined paper books in my room. I know I'm capable from my past works that NO ONE ELSE HAS SEEN AND I HOPE THEY NEVER DO...

... So why do I still have this implement block?

Air Rivals and Ragnarok Online can be added to the causes list but I know I can just get up and get something done right... Right? :S

Oh, here's a pic I submitted. Its a sketch so it's meant to be scruffy.

... And with that I'm out!

Peace!

Stevz!(Spagettio)